Bank Holiday Girls Catch Up - Just What You Need.

Just another Sunday, but no. It's the Bank Holiday!!, Well it was. For you anyway. Me I worked all of it. Just how it is, no biggie. 

(Photo Above and further below - Photographer - Kerry Curl, Location & Clothes & Furniture - Attik & Seller and Model - me - Amy Woodman)

(The first Bank Holiday in April I had off and my dad took me to the races - Fakenham - which was really great, sadly I was feeling really ill still so wasn't quite myself! But still was a lovely day out!)

I am currently working at a local pub The Black Horse as well as modelling (occasionally, more occasionally than ever ATM, maybe it's just the season and where the industry is going I just don't know) So I work flexible full time/part time, shift work really which consists of days, evenings, and late nights, but every shift is different times which makes it a little less mundane. It's a pub I've worked at for quite a long time and have been there throughout all the changes which makes me feel like a bit of the furniture to be honest - In a good way though. :)


I love the customers and the people I work with AND the fact we are a dog-friendly pub is a major plus! Also the food and drink offers are really good (Sunday Roasts especially! and recently I've got into the BrewDog Punk IPA in a can - the blue one) We have lots of exciting things planned for Summer which is pretty cool so if you haven't checked it out do so. Every Tuesday pints of Ale are only £3 ALL DAY if you're an aley fan! The house spirits are all £2.60 for single and £3.60 a double so under £5 for a double G&T <3 which is pretty good! The bar snacks are amazing (will have to take a photo of them all) and my favourite is definitely the crispy squid ! 

So anyway, myself and my good friend Kathrine (who I've known ever since Nursery) tend to meet up maybe once or twice a month and either go to a National Trust place (as we signed up last year as members) or dinner or a night out. Sunday draws closer and we plan to go for some cocktails out in Norwich and maybe somewhere after. The night is young - unless you go out a little later than planned. We were looking for a pretty chilled evening as we both had work the next day (Bank Holiday Monday).

I got home from work on the Sunday around 19:30 ish, felt reeeally tired so had a nap... woke up at 21:50! Had a few texts from Kat regarding our plan for the evening. Thought to myself.. I could just sleep more or I could go out for a bit..

Decisions!!

I decided to go out, dress up and have a good evening. It was great. I'm so pleased I decided to push myself to venture out and have a catch up with a good friend. :)

We went to Bond in Tombland (the old Bam Bams) for a Pornstar Martini which was really great - Prosecco as a shot is still a strange concept for me - and had already drank it prior to this photo - but I always enjoy these Martini's and this one is a really good one. I'd definitely recommend it! 

Then we had a glass of Prosecco each which had some raspberries in which was a great touch! Plus we both loved the glasses there. 

Goblet of Fizz. 

Really elegant and well worth the money for the amount you got. Happy, yes.

We sat outside for most of the evening as the seating area outside is like a jungle with palm trees and shrubbery (I always think of Monty Python - A SHRUBBERY!!) and there were heaters, which is always a plus, during this time of is it Winter or Spring? It was a nice chilled (but not cold) temperature - plus most people inside were so drunk and seemed like they were all on the same office party, and as much as I love meeting new people and getting involved this was not the right evening for it.

We moved on to Bar 11 where I had a double G & T (obviously) and another one and then some Tequila Rose which I LOVE. I think I could definitely drink an entire bottle and not feel anything drunk wise.

It's like being on holiday and having a (slightly) alcoholic icecream.

Yum!

We had a dance. We made some friends. When I say made some friends it's more like they found us. Strange men who either lose their friends somewhere in the club or get left behind or have no idea where they are.. that or the ones that go alone and stand there either staring at you or trying it on. None of this we were cool with so slid along to a space away from these sorts. Bless them for trying though. I mean I am picky when it comes to men but it's hardly fair that when I do get chatted up (like the once a year or something then I get these sorts, thank you but no I'm not interested thanks..)

I always love the music in Bar 11. At least you can wiggle to the majority of 'the beats'. 
Even if I'm not a good wiggler at least I'm making the effort. I like to call the music 'shitty R'n'B, the genre of music that I was never allowed to listen to growing up however it's made an appearance over the last 7 years. Sorry dad.

It's good music to wiggle to.

We stayed out a lot later than planned. I dressed up like a girl (I'm trying honest) and had a lovely catch up and chatted about loads it was really nice to just chill and have a few drinks and not have a mental one. Another time we'll start earlier and I haven't been to the Rooftop Gardens yet so would love to go there. Obviously we had to take a Bar 11 selfie in their new selfie mirror in the toilets. So here it is 

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I think sometimes you underestimate yourself and it's always good to have a chat with a friend and listen and help each other out. Vice Versa. I've been feeling in such a rut for a while and a little bit sad and just thinking of last year but it's good to have friends to keep you together even when you don't feel quite together. It's good to talk and sort out worries I think I just over think that bit and then say nothing because I find it easier to deal with. Saying nothing gets you nowhere. I've learnt that so I'm really going to try and pull myself back together and push through the feeling shit times. Make more time for people and spend more time with friends and doing things and writing even if maybe it's just for myself to look back and reflect on these silly times. Being positive and working out my life.


That's all for now. It's another Sunday, I need to get back on track and wake up and do things. My room is such a mess. Don't they say; 

A tidy room a tidy head? 

That's what I need to do!

Thanks for scrolling,

Amy xx

Fog of the Future

You know what, and to be honest, I haven't been the complete best with myself recently, but really, I've just been feeling a bit shit recently, for a number of different reasons. Trying to concentrate on working out the jigsaw, working on all the little bits and still not getting there with any sort of pattern. I'm usually good at these. 

I'm not sure where I'm supposed to be going (in life) what I want to do or what I'm supposed to be doing or whether I'm supposed to be knowing what I'm doing.

I'm at the age where I'm feeling like .. right now surely I should be proud of where I'm at. 

But really supposedly you should be proud of whatever you're at when you're doing that.

That's the thing, panicking about doing the right thing or not doing the right thing or what is the right thing?

I've been trying to decide whether modelling is going anywhere for me. I enjoy it yes. But realistically money wise it's getting me nowhere. I'm sometimes getting some. But mostly I'm not getting much. That's the honest truth. Maybe I'm getting more than some but for me it's not enough. It's not driving me. I want more. People always want more. It's not that I don't want it. I do. It's not that I'm even giving up to it. The competition is everywhere. It's a hard lifestyle. It's the inconsistency of it really. 

I love it and I hate it. 

Marmite. (I don't even like Marmite but I love twiglets) is that even a thing? I don't know. I'm at that stage where I'm thinking do I give it all up and concentrate on the real world. 
The real world which is still a struggle to achieve. 

Do I love what I do but I am just not earning enough to achieve something. Or do I love what I do because I like working with new people, helping them grow their business.
I want people (other people) to do well, but not myself? It's come to a point where; yes I want to help you out but I also want to and should feel the need to help myself out too. 

It's a two-way thing. 

That's always the thing in this Industry. The fashion industry. Or the makeup industry. Or in anything. I'm doing this because I want to. I want to make you happy and believe in yourself but surely I should believe in myself too. And I should want to. I need to. It's just a difficult thing to do. 

To want to, to need to, and to be appreciated for doing so.

Where does money come into it? Well, really money doesn't really do that much. Deciding the life of .. let's do this. Let's ignore the constant no money thing. Let's just carry on. Or do I forget it all and at least I tried? I don't know. That's where I'm at right now. I just don't know what to do. 

What is right. What I should do. What is right to do. 

What's earning me money? Modelling isn't right now and that's why I just shouldn't technically, practically and logically but giving up the dream of having that thing that I want, that everyone else wants is that what I should do? 

I just don't know. I don't know what to do.

Maybe I'll do something new for a bit and that might help me be me again.

- Advice is welcomed. Everyone's been there. It's just how to get out of it is the struggle.

Thanks for reading/scrolling

Amy